Being Happy on your own

" to be dependant on someone's love or happiness is never healthy "

in order to achieve happiness within me - solely by me, i want to:

1. learn how to cook
2. travel the world, eat exotic foods, observe strange culture
3. photo-document my travels
4. emphasize more on how i look, just so i feel confident looking in the mirror
5. more reading, less TV
6. constantly express love to mom, dad & brother that they're everything to me
7. have the courage one day to delete Divemaster's picture from my phone

michelle forgot how to be genuinely happy on her own -

Cravings of Banana Leaf & Mango Lassi

It's one of those nights when I'm sentimental again.


FB is a door to emo-michelle. And I never seem to learn, for I always am somehow lead back to that evil door, opening tonnes of depressing memories.


Browsed through lovey-dovey, cutesy pictures of Von & his model gf. We double-date quite a bit and Divemaster used to say Von is just fooling around. Baah! 
Look who's fooling around? Von just went on a hot vacation @Nusa Dua and Divemaster left me a year ago. You see? You see the things I put myself into?


Now I'm all emo, sitting alone in my room, polluting my lungs, wishing I was back in Nov.  Gaah.


I need a diversion. Something to distract me.

Michelle misses her first date at Vishal -